Sunday, September 2, 2012 @ 3:00 PM
I wanted to go to church today but couldn't 'cause my mum was admitted into the hospital. Yea, something happened lah, I hope she's alright. Wait, I shouldn't even post this; if my sister reads this, she'll be worried sick. Mum's currently resting in her room; I just came out after accompanying her and telling her some stories. It's great that she laughed, she deserved a good one. This was one of the rarest moments where I massaged her and I felt her muscles were so stiff and felt really guilty about it. I wonder how much work she's done for her muscles to be so stiff. :/
I think my mum is so adorable because she said she loves my stories although they're all so lame, hahaha. I had this convo with her just now and it made me laugh so hard 'cause she was so cute.
ME : Yea, he's not that bad lah but he's such a derp.
MUM : Oh, I see. I'm starting to not understand all your weird slangs.
ME : Huh? Like what?
MUM : Derp. What's derp?
ME : OH. HAHAHAHA. (laughs like shit)
MUM : Noob, too. And douche. My friend asked me about that that day. Douche. Her son was also using it. All those slangs, my goodness. They didn't exist when you were in Kwang Hua.
ME : They did! I just didn't use them as often, hehe.
LMAO. Cute mum is cute. :3 When she's not being such a tigress, she's so nice to talk to. Just like a typical mum. Oh, how I love her. And her birthday is in two daaays. I know she'd surely request for good grades as her birthday gift but I'm just gonna get her something ('cause I know she won't be liking my grades, hahaha). What to get for mum? Hmm.
Saw that somewhere, I think on 9gag. I wished my mum prepared one for me. I showed that to her and she just said, "You wanna get fatter, is it? I'm doing you a great favour by not getting you any tidbits, okay." Wow, that actually makes sense. I grew fatter, BTW. Cramming myself with Oreos when I study. I just cannot resist them lah, they're my guilty pleasures. :/
Seriously YOLO.I wasn't that addicted to Oreos until one fine day, Jil Ee and Audrey started bringing them to tuition so I always stuffed myself with Oreos until it became an obsession. Ho-hum. Not really their fault lah, actually. I don't have enough self-control, yay. V-___-V
On a side note, I feel like I've lost so much focus in studying compared to last time. Tomorrow is my last day of trials and man, I'm supposed to be striving lah, not blogging! I keep convincing myself that I've studied hard enough and I deserve to use the iPad and I really hate that I'm such a persuasive person, WTH. The lazy side of me always wins. I can feel the disappointment coming when I get back my trials results because I know I've not given my best. :/
Yvonne told me last Thursday that she was fasting for the Forty Day Fast. I didn't even know it started; I'm such a bad Christian, my gosh. God, forgive me. Anyway, I decided to fast from Facebook, Twitter, 9gag WHI (IKR, I don't even know why I'm addicted to it), some dude's Tumblr and Keek that I've been stalking a lot lately, Gifboom and Instagram. Yea, that's about it. Oh, and blogging, too. For a week (or more if I have the will). I decided to fast from all these temptations because they've distracted me so many times and I feel I've lost focus in my studies and drifted away from God.
Fasting starts tomorrow. I'm still considering whether I should fast from breakfast and lunch like I did last year. Shall pray about that. Self-control is vital during this fasting period. I feel like I've been such a huge disappointment to Him. I hope to grow closer to God again and get back on the right track. Pray, Ru Min. Pray.
This is mighty inspiring.So, yea. Till then, no more updates. Check back in a week's time (or more) for updates. Au revoir, beautiful people. :*
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Whisk me away
Thursday, August 30, 2012 @ 11:55 PM
These few weeks had been so exhausting and the holidays we had last week didn't really helped much. In the midst of trials so we still had to jam our brains with useless knowledge fit for exam purposes only. Oh, the joy. I've not been sleeping any earlier than midnight (busy burning the midnight oil, sigh) and my eyes are heavy AS now. So super tired but my biological clock says it's not time for me to sleep yet. Gonna do one short post 'cause it's been a while since I last updated.
Biology MCQ was hard, the questions were so tricky. Maybe it's because I didn't study so serves me right. Super disappointed in my Add Maths paper, though. One of my best subjects but I'm not gonna get an A* this time, so sad. I left four questions blank and most of them were easy as all my friends were shocked when I said I didn't know how to answer them. They were staring at me like, "Are you serious? WTH is wrong with you today?" Those differentiation of natural log and trigo questions, they were supposed to be easy for me so I didn't study. Heck, I didn't study for both of today's papers so they're totally screwed. Overconfident as usual, then regret like mad afterwards when I get back my lousy results. This cycle sounds so familiar. IDK why I never learn. V-__-V
Anyway, I'm not here to rant about my results. Not like I always did last time; I guess I've become more laid-back/lazy, whichever way you wanna interpret it. My mind has been loaded with umpteen questions lately, I have so many things to blog about. Questions, questions and more questions. They confuse me everyday and my thoughts are so energy-consuming. Might blog about some of them after my trials. Yep, trials end on Monday. Should've ended tomorrow but it's our National Day tomorrow so no, have to postpone THE LAST DAY OF TRIALS till Monday. Life is seriously good whey. *buries head and sobs*
Okay, shall go sleep now. Zits grow in clumps on my face with every word I type and my eye bags sag an inch more with every passing second. I might blog about some questions that have been clouding my mind after trials. But my IGCSEs draw near so this blog might be temporarily dead? No choice, terpaksa study lah whey.
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Saturday, August 18, 2012 @ 4:47 PM
The air wasn't as hazy as usual, thank God. Surprisingly, I had a good vision of my surroundings as the clean air carressed my cheeks when I cycled. Ahhh, so nice and cooling. :) You'll never get to experience this if you're in the car (air-cond isn't counted!). We didn't plan to cycle so far at first, maybe just around the neighbourhood then head back home. But as we cycled outside our comfort zone, we saw many other cyclist coming together at the kerb so we decided to join them.
My dad talked to them as we waited for the rest of the gang. Most of the cyclists there were guys in their mid 20s or 30s. I couldn't help but stared at their legs. Muscular like don't know what, I wonder where all their fats went. Freaking solid whey. ._. I tilted my head downwards and looked at my own legs...
V-___-V
While my dad babbled away with them, I realised how prepared they were to go on this mini cycling trip. Skintight attire, bike lights, bike helmet with lights attached to it at the front and back, bottled water, tubes just in case a bike tyre gets worn out, a pump, etc.
Us? We had our helmets and bike lights, that's all. And we thought we were so ready for it, hahaha. Neither one of us even brought along a bottled water, for heaven's sake! Anyway, we spotted the others coming our way so the guys told us to start cycling first. Dad wanted to wait for them but one of them just said, "Just go! They're very fast and will catch up with you later!" So, we cycled first. Suddenly, I felt a gush of wind blowing right beside me, over and over again. Swoosh! Swoosh! Swoosh! One by one, the guys overtook us and in the end, we're at the back of the pack.
Eventually, we lost all of them. We're on our own. In the dark. ._.
We haven't even started for long when I felt my legs aching already. Throughout the whole journey, my dad cycled faster than me and had to slow down so that I could keep up. He's 55, BTW, with a hunched back, already cracking bones and going through midlife crisis (whoops). Yet, he STILL cycled faster than me. Made me feel like I'm 170 instead of 17, WTH. That shows how unfit I am. :( Anyway, we're cycling along the motorcycle road instead of the highway. Many cars zoomed past us; some even honked us for don't-know-what reason. I just took that as an encouraging honk, haha. :D
There were very few motorbikes but there was this one dude who was so freaking annoying. When he was overtaking me, he revved up his engine so loud and scared the shit out of me. I almost fell into the ravine beside me, WTH. Almost died. My dad said, "Ignore them. They do that on purpose to scare you." Babi lah. I hope they get knocked down by cars and die. -_-
Okay, I take that back. Too mean already. God, forgive me.
I saw dead rats with intestines spilling out on the road; they must've gotten ran over my motorbikes. :/ And there were little snakes slithering around. At one point, when I was cycling, some tiny bird/dragonfly/bat flew straight towards me and smacked itself onto my left shoulder. I screamed, HAHAHA. But it was damn painful lah, my God. Dad cycled way ahead of me, leaving me behind to eat his dust. -_-
But it was the best time to talk to God. I talked to Him about the many things that have been going on in school, all my troubles and drama that happened. He comforted me and told me to learn how to forgive. It felt good to share with someone I love; I felt a burden being lifted off instantly. I told Him about the happy things, too, and thanked Him for making them happen. Of course He knows about all my stories lah, since He's the one who planned everything (LOL), but I like to tell Him stuff. I like talking to God. Despite all the noise of cars zooming past and trucks honking under the moonlit sky, I felt so serene, so calm, so peaceful.
I talked to God, as in really TALKED. Not praying or speaking in my mind. I used my mouth, used my voice, used words. No one could hear me, anyway. Dad was so far ahead, the only thing I could see was his flashing red bike light. But I'm sure God was listening intently to my every word; He always does. :') There were a few times we had to cycle through tunnels, it was so scary but I kept praying out loud so God would protect us. After a while, I started singing P&W songs. Wait, not singing, SCREAMING! It felt so good, hahaha. So glad I could spend time with dad and heavenly dad at the same time. :B
Mum called us 10+ times but dad couldn't answer. At that time, we were out from our motorcycling lane and crossing the highway with a gazillion cars zooming past us. So dangerous and risky. Me likeyyy. *rubs hands together in glee* HAHAHAHA. By the time we arrived back home, my muscles ached like siaocrazy and my butt hurt like mad. The bicycle seat was damn uncomfortable! I saw my mum and my brother waiting for us anxiously at the gate, worried sick. They thought we got mugged or kidnapped, LOL! Couldn't blame them either, crime rate is on the rise every single day. Dad and I headed straight towards the kitchen. Sprite and ice, Sprite and ice, Sprite and ice. LMAO, damn thirsty, okay.
Moonlight illuminating our paths. Cool breeze combing through my hair. Legs pumping as furiously as my heart. Cars, trucks and motorcycles zooming past. Red and green lights of the tollbooths looking brighter than ever up close. Dad and I ringing the bicycle bell to indicate we're still alive. Precious moments spent with God. I enjoyed every single second of it despite my hurting butt, muscle cramps and extreme exhaustion.
Yeaaa, man. Let's do it again. \m/
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Friday, July 20, 2012 @ 11:49 PM
My muscles ached like crazy after I came back from ballet class. Couldn't go en pointe properly because my legs were sore from running yesterday. This proves that I seriously lack of exercise. -_- But the great news is I ran for 30 minutes just now. Yep, at 10pm. It felt so good to run in the dark with the occasional glaring light in the eyes because of passing vehicles. I wanted to walk Snoopy as promised but my mum offered to do it since she wants me to slim down, too. Why walk when I can run? LMAO. While I ran, Snoopy kept chasing me, haha. So adorable but I kinda pitied my mum 'cause she was pulled by him! :O
I still can't resist the temptation of food, though. :( Broke a few rules today : I ate lunch when I decided not to (but just a little); snacked on three Oreo cookies in tuition (Zhe Ying specially brought it for me and forced me to eat them so I had no choice :L) and had a McD Foldover for dinner (smart move lah, Ru Min, smart move ==). Ohwellz, bad habits die hard. Shall work harder to achieve my goal.
I think my dad was relieved(?) that I finally got to my senses to slim down. He cycled behind me while I ran because in a way, he was sorta "chasing" me so I felt the need to move faster. It really works - I ran all the way back home from the park non-stop for the first time. :D My dad was so excited about me running he started talking about buying me new running shoes and suggesting that I should join marathons in the future. Uh, dad? I'll just be one fat ball in the midst of the other hardcore runners, rolling slowly along the road for milleniums before I reached the finishing line. ._. So, the answer is no. Just no.
Anyway, I'll be waking up at 6.30am tomorrow to go cycling with him. :) We'll be cycling out of our comfort zone to a land really far away for hours and my mum has no clue about our little plan (that's a good thing because she'd be squawking like crazy if she knew). I'm so excited because it sounds like an adventure and I love adventures! :D Also partly because my life lacks excitement. Gee, I sound so sad. Fine, I am. :(
I really hope I get thin fast. Kinda emo about my weight lately and I feel stupid for being emo over small matters and because I feel stupid for emoing over small matters, I feel emo for being stupid. Wait, whut? OHH-KAYYY. I think I'd better go do my sit-ups and push-ups then get some sleep; I'm beat.
Ahhh, finally doing something beneficial other than mopping around the house like a backboneless person. So satisfying. :')
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Thursday, July 19, 2012 @ 10:27 PM
On second thought, I shall just go to the gym next time. Who needs those beautiful views when you can slim down in a fully air-cond room? Teehee.
I realised exercising is actually REALLY good for us. After all those years of writing essays on how exericising benefits us, I can finally admit that it's true, surprisingly. I took a nice hot bath after running then I had dinner while using the iPad (sigh, some bad habits die hard). I realised all this happened in just two hours and I'm still filled with energy; normally, I'd be either stuffing myself with food or lazing around doing nothing productive.
After dinner, I was damn alert so I started studying for my Chemistry quiz tomorrow. On normal days, I'd just doze off and die on my bed with my fats, LOL. To hell with the quiz, I'd rather sleep! :P I am shocked of my diligent behaviour today and am very proud of myself. What an accomplishment! :D Also, I'm quite glad to hear my brother finally strumming some chords on the guitar. He just started learning; he doesn't really like to play instruments (he abandoned his piano mission at the age of seven, LOL). I hope he gets better in the future then we can play together. :)
After revising for my quiz tomorrow, I felt sleep so I did my sit-ups and push-ups. It went well; I could almost feel abs forming, HAHAHAHA. Okay, dream on. Sigh, I love this productive day of mine. :') I wanna do it again tomorrow but I have tuition and ballet lessons. NVM, I shall skip breakfast and lunch then walk Snoopy after my ballet class and do my sit-ups and push-ups before I sleep.
Okay, plan onz. So excited; I wanna see how long I can maintain this awesome routine. :D
WHOA, OMG. :O
That girl is fanfreakingtastically amazing. This shows that anything is possible in life. I'm super pumped and motivated to slim down now. Oh, how much I love people who inspire others! (Y)
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Wednesday, July 18, 2012 @ 8:45 PM
So many people have been pestering me to blog but nowadays, I don't really have much free will to express however I want due to SOME reasons so I don't even feel like blogging altogether. Some self-centered people just want to watch the world burn. -_- Another reason is because I've been so busy with homework and quizzes lately. Too many quizzes for coursework! :( Barely have enough time to study for all of them. Another Add Maths quiz tomorrow and here I am, not giving a damn. Feels good to be a badass once in a while. 8)
It is also hugely my beloved brother's fault. He has been (once again) hogging the computer and as I don't blog from the iPad, thus, semi-dead blog. Mind you, I have loads of inspiration and absolutely no writer's block or whatsoever. So many things to blog about as I've experienced umpteen many exciting events lately (my ex school's Talentine, NASA Space Settlement Competition, Subang Rally, my class' fundraising event today, etc.) but I'm just plain lazy. Ru Min? Lazy? *gasps* Okay, I'm always lazy. There's no need for such a big response.
Also, I feel guilty everyday for not touching my textbooks. I've grown to be so freaking lazy, I can just sleep all day long even though it's a school day. I mean, whenever I feel like studying, the stupid iPad will be lying around somewhere and then all thoughts of revising will be gone. I swear, it's sucking my soul and killing my brains. I've went through so many sleepless nights because of the iPad. Sigh, I shouldn't give in to temptation so easily. -_-
One totally irrelevant but perfectly good excuse for me being not motivated to blog is because I AM SO FAT ALREADY. I know, I know. You'd probably think, What the heck is your weight got to do with you not blogging? Excuses lah. Don't want to blog then say lah. Haha, chillax, bro. Hear me out. It's weird but when I feel fat, I feel so demotivated. My mood will be freaking ruined for the whole day so there's no drive to blog anymore. Eventhough it might be a fantastic day for me but whenever I think about my weight, I feel... sad. Whoa, sharing my insecurities with the entire universe. I'm so brave. ._.
Wait. Suddenly, I feel like there's a need to blog about my weight. Gonna abandon my mission of explaining why I'm not blogging frequently nowadays. :P Okay, I've been dieting like siaocrazy since last year and yes, it did work but just for a while (because whenever I drop 1kg, I stuff myself 2kg to celebrate my weight loss #dumb) so I'm back to square one. My mum said I should eat three regular meals and stop binching when I feel hungry (or when my mouth starts itching for food -_-) and for once, I listened to her. I eat three regular meals (but not large proportions) and do fifty sit-ups and twenty push-ups everyday because I read somewhere in the Net that that will help to strengthen stomach and arms muscles. (Y) I don't run daily (I should) but I don't think I have enough time. Might start that routine but they said it takes quite a while to burn calories.
I've already cut down on junk food and carbonated drinks (my mum doesn't even buy them anymore) but sometimes, I snack to keep me awake on those rare days when I feel like studying. I used to diet a lot last time but it's unhealthy so I wanna do it the right way. MANA TAU, MALANG TIDAK BERBAU. After trying so hard, I feel like a fool. I have gained TWO FREAKING KILOS just because I was practising a healthy diet. Do you even know how disappointing is that? Probably not; you're so slim and good-looking, some of your clothes look loose on you.
Maybe I should've stuck to starving myself; it'd have shown better results. On some days, I wonder why I bother so much about my weight. I didn't really care much about it last time and I was happy to eat whatever I like. I realised I've been so affected with these petty worldly matters but I can't get them out of my head. It irritates me to think that I've tried so hard to slim down and yet I'm heavier by 2kg now - it's freaking hard for me to lose 2kg, okay. -_- Sigh, it might be God's way of telling me to stop trying and just be satisfied with life.
I guess I'd start my original dieting plan tomorrow again. Healthy lifestyles just don't do for me, sadly. Gonna start running tomorrow if possible. Okay, gotta finish up my English essay then sleep with my fats. ;_; Goodnight, guys. On a side note, I'm really glad that some of you still view my blog although it's kinda dead. Thanks a lot. I'd give you a potato but I love potatoes and I'm a selfish person, so NO. :P
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5:37 AM
OMG, I find this so hilariously good. Someone should get this idea drummed into the heads of the people who design movie theatres!
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