Monday, October 29, 2012 @ 4:30 PM
In fact, prayer really helps. Before every paper, I pray hard first for God to give me a clear mind, confidence and peace in my heart. Is it bad that I do that? Like praying before my exams because I want a good grade? IDK, sometimes I feel guilty for praying before my exams 'cause it's like when I want something then only I pray. I do pray on a daily basis, though, to thank God for the food, shelter and mostly that I'm still alive and able to live for another day (eh, it sounds sappy but I am truly thankful for my life, okay). Anyway, back to the topic. I admit I've not been studying for two weeks which is really not like me; I remember during my PMR preparations I studied like sheeeeet. I remember doing THIRTEEN History, FIFTEEN Geography and SIX Living Skills workbooks. And I sat in Popular two weeks straight just to copy down random karangan points to prepare for my BM paper. LOL, so hardcore. Mana tau, in the end, all got B. HAHAHA, just kidding. Actually, that's seriously too much lah. Too kiasu, can't imagine I was like this, damn lifeless. -_-
As proven, I prepared for my PMR like I was preparing to become the next president of USA, HAHA. And now, I'm in the midst of having my IGCSEs but treating it like some peanuts exam, WTH. Lazing around and procrastinating. Blogging even, wat. What in the world happened to me? :/ Oh, one key point : I didn't have Facebook last time, hurhurhur. NOW, I UNDERSTAND. If I didn't switch schools, I'll never own an account, seriously. I created it because I wanna keep in touch with my old friends. Eh, my gosh. Come to think of it, Facebook really ruined my life lah. Have to fast from it again after my exams. Yes, I must.
Okay, maybe I did study lah, especially for Bio 'cause it's my weakest subject. I did camp in the library day and night (LOL, lies) just to focus on studying because I was easily distracted at home. But that was waaay before exams started, maybe a month or two? And I didn't even bother to really study on the rest of the subjects, like I'm so smart already, WTH. Still, I feel confident when I did all my papers. Really, is this overconfidence? I asked so many people but they just said I'm really prepared, that's why I feel so calm. Dad also said it's because I've put in a lot of effort in acing the test. Effort? What effort? *yaomingface* Personally, I just feel God is on my side; He always is and always will be. :) Although the questions for all the papers I've done weren't ABC123PIE, I feel like I can do it. Like I have the answers (some of them are wrong, though, HAHA). I know people say if you want God to help you, you have to first help yourself. That's why I'm confused because I don't think I've helped myself but why is God helping me?
Although I've studied for Bio vaguely and not seriously, the topics that I've spotted all came out. Damn happy sial, can crai whey. I'm extremely grateful, praise the Lord! :') I didn't know how to structure my answers properly but I really hope I nailed it. :/ Okay, time to stop ranting about how chilled I am like it's a bad thing and how I managed to do my exams properly. If I jinx it then GG. ._. God, please ah. Let the rest of the papers be manageable also, please. Thank You, Amen. :B
Honestly, I came here to blog about something more serious to free my thoughts but it ended up with this random post. Kinda glad it did; I feel happier now after talking to myself, LOL. I guess my thoughts will have to stay in my head for a while. So many things to voice out, so many confusions to clear up, so many frustrations to get rid of but no one to turn to, sigh. One week down, three weeks to go. Can't wait for my exams to be over. Hang in there, Ru Min.
To end on a lighter note, some eye poetry for you from my favourite photog, IRENE SUCHOCKI.
Cheers, guys. Have a marvellous week. x
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