Tuesday, June 5, 2012 @ 4:15 PM
Incidents like that happen a lot and I'm not proud of them, of course. I feel guilty for treating them like that but I don't have a very good anger management skill. I rant about them a lot on my blog and when I look back on the post, my heart just twists into knots of shame and embarrassment at the words I use to vent my anger. I can see myself being so heartless and plain rude. I've always wanted to delete negative posts but I just can't bring myself to do it because they serve as a history of my feelings and a reminder that I shouldn't blog like that again as it's mean.
I know my parents call me fat and all but they still buy me food to devour so it's okay. They still love me, haha. And as long as there's food around, they can call me fat to their hearts' desire. :B I'm glad my parents don't show love by using meaningless words and empty promises like some of my friends' parents. I'm really grateful for that. My parents are more of the physical side and not emotionally driven. After all, actions speak louder than words.
Wait. Let's move back a few steps. Empty promises.
I know my parents love me and all but I just can't get over the fact that they don't wanna buy me a freaking iPod Nano 5G. *sulks* It's already so outdated and they can get one for me for a super cheap price. But, nooo. I will end up being deaf, dumb and retarded if I listen to them songs. -_- And they think I'll get hooked to listening to songs until I can't concentrate in my studies. Y U NO UNDERSTAND? With the iPad, two computers, a laptop and the TV lying around, WHAT studies? *yaomingface*
I don't see myself as a demanding child. I don't ask for a new iPhone or laptop for no reason. If I didn't do anything to earn it, then I don't deserve it. As simple as that. I also seldom spend money on clothes or accessories; I'm not an impulse shopper. Only recently, I started buying a few tees here and there because my wardrobe sucks max and doesn't fit my age group. The clothes I'm having now are for twelve-year-olds and that might be an understatement because twelve-year-olds are dressing more maturely nowadays. ._.
Come to think of it, I need more shorts. Okay, I digress. Moving on.
I don't like buying a cup of Starbucks coffee for myself. Or Häagen-Dazs ice-cream as a treat. Heck, I'm so reluctant to buy Subway cookies until my friends think I'm some stingy piece of shit. My point is I don't spend my parents' money like water. It's true that they might have spent thousands on my food and gazillion storybooks but those things worth more than dresses and lip gloss, right? Right? RIGHT? Right.
So, I deserve an iPod Nano 5G. And I'm gonna get it myself if they don't want to. Hmph.
Ahhh, to think I can finally have my very own (outdated) gadget other than the purple cellphone that I still can't claim it's mine just in case my parents decided to take it back one fine day - it feels fantabulous. :D Like rainbows and unicorns and Nutella. 8D I've been surfing eBay Malaysia lately and found good deals but the bidding time ended. :( Gonna try my luck again.
In the mean time, ANYONE who wants to SELL their iPOD NANO 5G (preferably 16GB with a CAMERA) which is still in GOOD CONDITION, please leave me a comment. I might consider if the colour is nice and you're selling it at a reasonable price. :) And it must still be FUNCTIONING WELL, of course. If you know anyone who wants to sell theirs, please tell them to leave me a comment, too. Thanks. :D
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UPDATE : I just found one on eBay Malaysia again! And it comes in ten different colours! :D But it's an iPod Nano 4G with only 8GB and no camera function. Should I get it? :/
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