Friday, May 25, 2012 @ 8:25 PM
WTH, I'm freaking pissed off right now. Thanks to SOMEBODY, he just ruined my entire day. He said I didn't study enough and wasn't focused throughout my exams. Are you freaking kidding me? Does it even matter whether I've studied or not? You and your wife would just say I didn't, right? And what about all those, "Oh, you're stressing yourself too much!" or "Just take it easy and relax!"? Forgotten about those already? Yea, just when I'm starting to chill you said I'm NOT focused and NOT studying enough? Seriously, screw you. I thought you were different from her; I guess I was wrong.
And so what if I was watching music videos on the iPad while studying? SO WHAT? I told you I wanted an iPod because I wanna listen to music - I didn't even freaking ask for an iPhone or my own laptop or a freaking iPod TOUCH, you SOB - but nooo, you and your bloody wife said listening to the iPod will make me DEAF and DIE and GET CANCER and whatever shit you guys made up just to avoid getting me one. And before that nonsense happened, she had the NERVE to say, "You want an iPod? Let's wait for your results first." Really? Screw you. I'm not a person who asks for rewards when my results are satisfying but just when I wanna ask for a little favour?
NO.
Excuses, excuses and MORE OF YOUR DUMB EXCUSES.
Excuses, excuses and MORE OF YOUR DUMB EXCUSES.
About the DSLR thing. SCREW THE HELL OUT OF BOTH OF YOU LAH. Seriously? Using that DSLR excuse as my reward for getting 8A's in PMR, as my birthday gift for TWO consecutive years, as my CHRISTMAS gift, as my reward for getting good results, as a gift for my living existence, etc. etc. etc. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? And then said, "Hey, the DSLR is for everybody, not for you only." SCREW YOU ALL. Will it even hurt to get me a storybook, even if it's a shitty one? I DON'T EVEN SPEND YOUR MONEY ON CLOTHES, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH BOTH OF YOU?
Freaking sick of you both lah. You set high expections, I achieve it, then you tell me to relax. When I start chilling a bit, YOU SAID I DIDN'T STUDY? Please, go rot in hell, IDGAD. You think it's so nice and easy to remain first, is it? If I didn't study, you think the teachers, like, SUMMONED me to get first? BEING FIRST IS NOT STRESSFUL AND TIRING, IS IT? SCREW YOU. GO AND TRY BEING FIRST AND SEE LAH, MA DE. When you get first, people EXPECT you to get first so it's no big deal. When you DON'T get first, people assume you either got lazy/arrogant so they look down upon you. Sounds fun, right? Shit you.
I hate the first position. You have nothing to look forward to as there is no position higher than the first place. And the whole freaking world either hates you for being top all the time or they'll just look at you and think you have no life because you're a nerd. And some kiasu scumbags will just keep competing with you until you die/lose to them. IDGAD but it gets annoying/sick/tiring after a while. You told me to relax and chill. No need to get first all the time. THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING NOW LAH. If I really got first again, it's all thanks to God because I didn't really study. If I didn't then it doesn't matter lah since it's my own fault for not studying like mad; being first doesn't mean anything to me. I've gotten way worse, anyway. BUT WHY ARE YOU EVEN GIVING A DAMN? WHEN I REVISE TILL 3AM, DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT? Or were you snoring away in Dreamland? But when the minute I go on YouTube, you said I'M NOT FOCUSED? Please, kill me before I kill you.
Shouldn't you guys be thankful that I didn't end up like those shitass smart people who got depression after a while? Shouldn't you guys feel better that I didn't really cared when I lost three marks? Or would you guys feel better if I actually bugged the teacher to give me those three marks back? Stop. I think I know the answer but I don't wanna hear it. If you think I'm dumb, fine. But I think you're dumber. What part of "I AM DIFFERENT" do you not understand? I don't wanna enter the medical field. That's so mainstream. I don't even like Science subjects, for heaven's sake. I'm just taking those lame subjects just because you want me to. If I ever requested to study any Arts subjects, I think you guys will go berserk and just melt into the earth since you think Arts subjects are for stupid people, right? -_-
You once said both of you will support me in anything I do. Now, tell me why I can't seem to find any truth in that statement. *rolls eyes* "What field are you interested in, then?" Don't you even dare ask me that. I told you before but does it even matter? It was stupid of me to think it did. Don't even bother asking me what field I'm interested in because in the end, YOU'LL JUST ASK ME TO BE A GODDAMN DOCTOR.
Newsflash : Over my dead body.
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