So many thoughts have been running through my mind lately. Random thoughts, serious thoughts, heartfelt thoughts, thoughts about my future, about people, about things... I don't know, I'm confused. Overwhelmed, in fact. So very. I don't mind letting my mind run wild once in a while but they're really taking up a lot of my time as I sit and wonder about things that I can do nothing about. My IGCSE is merely 23 days away, not even a month. Every time I feel that I've studied enough and feel confident, stuff I don't know will just jump out of nowhere. And it's like I'm lost, I don't know where I'm heading to. What am I supposed to study? Which of the topics are in my syllabus? Am I taking in too much unnecessary info? My God, please help me. "Studying is endless, bottomless. It'll never end." Wise words from my mum. Am I prepared? That's the ultimate question I've been asking myself since the past few months. I can (not so proudly) say that I'm not. I'm not prepared at all.

I keep thinking about the things I want to do after my exams. Things I'd like to do. Places that I'd like to go. Friends I'd like to hang out with. They're clogging up my mind but I can't seem to get rid of them. And the internet, it's slowly consuming my entire soul. I don't have Tumblr but OTHER people's Tumblrs are enough to get me addicted; thank God I don't own one (although it'd be nice). There's Facebook, Twitter, 9gag, etc. Places where everyone goes to hide from the world of real interaction. I don't know why I'm so addicted to them; I can go online five times a day without doing anything, such a waste of time. It's the people there that feed my addiction, I guess. I think it's time for another round of fasting. :/

I've been listening to so many Coldplay songs and I've forced many people to listen to their songs. Seriously, EVERY song of theirs is smashingly good! Well, except for Hurts Like Heaven (Hafiza, please don't kill me). Not really my type but maybe it's because I've not listened to it long enough. Coldplay is like the entire reason why I want an iPod Nano/Touch/whatever now. I can listen to their songs all day on repeat. Chris Martin, I love your voice. :') I feel like buying their Mylo Xyloto album, too. It might cost me a bomb but I think it's a rather worthy bomb, haha. I can really connect with their song lyrics and the meanings behind them. So gonna learn how to play ALL their songs after my exam. On my bucket list! :D

Gosh, I've been so emotional about practically everything lately and I really hate it. I've always been a strong person and the one people run to when THEY have an emotional breakdown. I freaking cried when I watched Coldplay's Paradise MV, the crap? My friends think I'm nuts and I'm going berserk. They're blaming it all on exam stress. Perhaps so. I'd love to blame it all on pressure but I know that's not the real reason why I'm acting this weird. Actually, I don't know why I'm being so emotional either; it's so freaking annoying to have mixed emotions for no reason. WTH is wrong with me? Get a grip of yourself, Ru Min!

On a lighter note, October is here. Time really does fly, doesn't it? Today is Bryan and Aijean's birthday, yay! It's really cool that they're born on the same day. AND I MET BOTH OF THEM IN META 3 THREE YEARS AGO. Wow, my friends instantly +2, not forever alone already, HAHA. Okay, I shall dedicate birthday wishes to these two awesome peeps just because I can. :D

Dude, I think it's really cool that we both wanted to sideshave, get a freaking STAR tattoo (but we can't, of course :/) and dipdye. The minute we told each other about this, it felt like we were some long lost Ong twins reuniting whey, big deal enough to throw a party, HAHAHA. Kinda creepy but it's like a sign from God that great minds think alike. :D

We've been friends for three years now. Not long a time but it's a really meaningful friendship, to me. I still remember the first time you asked me to jump during P&W in Meta 3 and in my mind I was like, "The heck is this dude's problem? I don't even know you, bro! You can't make me! NO." HAHAHA, sorry lah, too shy liaoz. I'm still not jumping, though. :B And the Rocky stick I passed to you when all of us campers were chilling in the balcony. I've never stretched so much in my life just to pass you the Rocky stick because you were on the balcony above ours. I think I've grown a few inches taller after that, HAHAHA. Can't believe it actually happened. And gosh, the nonsense we talk about, EPIC lah. And endless, too. You've taught me well, master. *bows* HAHAHA. I love the convos we shared no matter how lebih or serious they are; I've learnt so much from you. :') Ermahgerd, lahv you lah, bbz. I'm so happee that you're finally nineteen. Okay, now here's the part where you cry since you're so terharu already. HAHAHA. Blessed 19th, bbz!

Aijeaaan. And Ryan Higa, of course, haha. You lucky girl.

You've grown so much since the first time I met you (physically and mentally, haha). I remember asking you to sit on my lap on the first day of Meta 3, LOL. Too cute already lah you. :3 But not anymore since you've become so pretty! :) Long/short hair fits you perfectly well, I'd have to say. And God, you're hilarious, man. Remember the prank calls we received during camp? Your five-bucks-skinny-jeans comeback, DAYUM. HAHAHA. I pity that guy, though. :P You're finally fifteen and your PMR is SO soon but I'm sure you'll do perfectly well. :) And yes, it's time you get your butt off the internet and do some last minute studying, ermahgerd! Dato Onn Jaafar and Tun Tan Cheng Lock waiting for you in your Sejarah textbook whey, don't disappoint them. Later our country cannot dibebaskan from the orang Inggeris then it's all your fault. HAHAHA, nonsense betul. Keep doing what you do best, alright? I still read your blog (and Poor Kids' blog, LMAO) so remember to update after your PMR. :D Happy 15th birthday, iJean! :*

Omai, I just love these people. :)