Saturday, November 5, 2011 @ 2:34 PM
I realised I'm really antisocial. I was studying with Mun Yeed that day in the canteen when that fact sank into me. She was telling me about her cousins who'll go and hide when visitors came to their house and she said, "So antisocial! What is there to be scared about?" And I said quietly, "Hey, that sounds like me. What will you do, then? Go out and greet them?" I asked her and she said, "Of course!"
The next evidence is when I'm new to someone or my friends' friends are introduced to me, I'll just smile and nod. No "hey" or "how are you doing" and stuff. If you were to invite me to have lunch with you and a bunch of your friends whom I don't know, I swear I will turn down your offer although I'd love to go. I don't hate meeting new people and I am definitely not a shy person. What is my problem, then? -_- I AM SO ANTISOCIAL. And I blame my parents for that. IT'S THEIR FAULT. It must be all those times where I ask them whether I can hang out with my friends or meet new people and they'll just reply me with, "NO." Or, "Kaki jalan already lah? Want to lepak everywhere, is it? So clever to gallivant around nowadays. Becoming more and more demanding and acting like an Ah Lian."
WTH? Running around in my own garden means gallivanting around? Hanging out? With who? Flowers and grass? The insects? -_- Don't blame me because I don't dare to order a pizza or go to the counter to request for a stack of tissues. I HAVE NEVER ORDERED PIZZA. AND I DON'T NEED TISSUES. >:( I really hate it when they say I'm demanding. Seriously? I try my best to get good grades and ignore those people who call me kiasu and nerd and lifeless in order to live up to your demands. All for what? For you to say I'm demanding? Oh, I agree with you, very much so.
And how could you ever say I'm transforming into an Ah Lian (which basically means lala)? Eh, seriously lah, the way I dress is more down-to-earth than Earth itself, okay. And since when did being an Ah Lian has anything to do with going out? Plus, I have never gone out before so your argument is invalid. People get shocked everyday when I tell them I've never gone out/hang out with my friends. My words never fail to surprise them. Which is a bad thing. A REALLY bad thing.
What's more, my parents said they are worried that I'm not growing up enough. Mentally. The heck?! I'm all grown up like a damn oak tree but only you all don't see it and just lock me inside like Snoopy. Sigh, Snoopy and I are leading the same pathetic lives. Only his is much better than mine because he doesn't need to worry about exams and socialising. And he gets to go for walks twice everyday unlike me where the furthest I can go is the gates of my house, FML.
Geram, I need food now. At times like this when I'm upset, I don't bother about losing weight anymore because all I wanna do is EAT. -_-
Mmm, Hokkaido cake, my best friend.
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